April 11, 2010 was the day that I started Weight Watchers. My mom had been asking me to join her at meetings for a couple of years and I was always too embarrassed to admit that I was a little, ok, a lot over weight. I also was convinced that Weight Watchers was for old fat women who had tried every hip new diet that came out in the last 25 years. When I joined WW, I was 183.6 lbs. The "fattest" that I have ever been in my entire life.
My goal weight right now is set at 140 lbs which is 5 lbs less than my old "lightest" weight that I can consciously remember being. In the late winter/ early spring 2008 I went from 160 lbs to roughly 145 lbs primarily because there was someone, at least at that point in my life, important to me who had told me I needed to lose weight, yes, that person had also once called me fat too. So I lost the weight to prove a point to that person, that I could do it.I was able to keep the weight off for about 6 months, then I got comfortable in my relationship and being back with Joe and of course, we started to eat out a lot and I put the weight back on... plus some, ok, double plus some
Right now, after weighing in today, about 10 months since starting this weight loss "journey", I am standing at a smaller 158.8 lbs. I am slowly noticing changes, but who sees the changes in themselves honestly? The thing that made me realize that this is working is my boyfriend.Today he looked at me while he was getting ready to leave for work and he said "you're looking skinnier". We weren't even talking about my weigh in at that moment, and he noticed. One thing really helping to keep me motivated right now is Joe is following WW with me and tracking points on his phone, it really does help having him know exactly what I'm going through (even if he does get 46 pts per day compared to my 29 pts...)
What motivated me to write this though, sitting here working on homework, I was almost moved to tears... My mind was wandering (as it usually does when I ready for classwork) and I realized something amazing. I am only 13 lbs away from the weight I was at my all-time skinniest... 13 POUNDS... it used to be almost 40 lbs away...
My end all, be all goal weight is 140 lbs. right now. That is only another 18.8 lbs away from me. My ultimate goal date is a friends wedding this June, I WILL fit back into my white & blue Cache dress and look fabulous in it again.
